Listening to: Guster, "Either Way"
I think the new project that I hinted at the other day is starting to take shape. Of course, I'm not going to go into much detail here (don't want to jinx it--I'm so freaking superstitious), but I told The Husband about it last night and he got very excited. That's kind of my litmus test for ideas--if he likes it, it's good.
I will say that it's somewhat more fantastical than my previous work. Most of what I write is contemporary fantasy, set in our world as we know it, in some subset of our society that has magical qualities/abilities for whatever reason and blah blah blah. This particular idea, though, involves a sort of parallel world that exists simultaneously with ours, and the intersection of those worlds.
I gotta admit, I'm a little nervous about it. I find myself not really committing to it yet--the voice in my head says, Well, we'll* just write a little more and see where it goes, this doesn't have to be our next project....
And then I write a bit more, and then a bit more...and yesterday I found myself brainstorming crazily. I don't know why I'm having such a hard time committing to this--maybe I'm scared, maybe I'm not really in love with the idea yet. I definitely didn't get that wonderful chill up my spine that I usually do when I fall in love with a concept, when I know it's "the one". Am I just getting jaded with the whole write-a-novel-revise-the-novel-repeatedly-try-to-get-it-published-and-fail process?** Or is the idea really not as great as I think?
Or am I just overanalyzing everything because I'm bored to tears right now?
Or is this a good thing--a sign that I'm finally able to stop freaking out every time I start a new project, and I'm developing a more relaxed approach to all of this?
Or am I just overanalyzing everything because--oh wait, we went there already.
I don't have a freaking clue. All I really know, I guess, is that it's humid as $*%& today, I need a shower, and The Office season premiere is on in 8.5 hours.
And I guess that's enough.
*Yes, the voice in my head uses the Royal We. I'm majestic like that.
**If so, it's a bit early for that. I've only been actively pursuing publication for about two years. That's like, a minute and a half in publishing time.
If you don't feel that you are possibly on the edge of humiliating yourself, of losing control of the whole thing, then possibly what you are doing isn't very vital. If you don't feel like you are writing somewhat over your head, why do it? If you don't have some doubt of your authority to tell this story, then you are not trying to tell enough. --John Irving