Here We Go Again

Listening to: Guster, "Either Way"

I think the new project that I hinted at the other day is starting to take shape. Of course, I'm not going to go into much detail here (don't want to jinx it--I'm so freaking superstitious), but I told The Husband about it last night and he got very excited. That's kind of my litmus test for ideas--if he likes it, it's good.

I will say that it's somewhat more fantastical than my previous work. Most of what I write is contemporary fantasy, set in our world as we know it, in some subset of our society that has magical qualities/abilities for whatever reason and blah blah blah. This particular idea, though, involves a sort of parallel world that exists simultaneously with ours, and the intersection of those worlds.

I gotta admit, I'm a little nervous about it. I find myself not really committing to it yet--the voice in my head says, Well, we'll* just write a little more and see where it goes, this doesn't have to be our next project....

And then I write a bit more, and then a bit more...and yesterday I found myself brainstorming crazily. I don't know why I'm having such a hard time committing to this--maybe I'm scared, maybe I'm not really in love with the idea yet. I definitely didn't get that wonderful chill up my spine that I usually do when I fall in love with a concept, when I know it's "the one". Am I just getting jaded with the whole write-a-novel-revise-the-novel-repeatedly-try-to-get-it-published-and-fail process?** Or is the idea really not as great as I think?

Or am I just overanalyzing everything because I'm bored to tears right now?

Or is this a good thing--a sign that I'm finally able to stop freaking out every time I start a new project, and I'm developing a more relaxed approach to all of this?

Or am I just overanalyzing everything because--oh wait, we went there already.

I don't have a freaking clue. All I really know, I guess, is that it's humid as $*%& today, I need a shower, and The Office season premiere is on in 8.5 hours.

And I guess that's enough.


*Yes, the voice in my head uses the Royal We. I'm majestic like that.

**If so, it's a bit early for that. I've only been actively pursuing publication for about two years. That's like, a minute and a half in publishing time.