Friday, February 15

Stress and Chaos

Listening to: Muse, "Starlight"

One thing I've never been good at is pushing my stress aside to write. This is kind of odd, I know--a lot of writers write to forget about the stress (even when the writing itself is stressful). But when the stress is personal--i.e., family or friend related--the writing part of my brain tends to shut down so it can focus on all the stressful stuff.

Right now, I'm going through a tiny rough patch, the details of which are not important. Actually, it's not my rough patch, but it's a tough time for someone very close to me, and I'm dealing with a lot of the fallout. When this person called this morning with more problems, problems that I know she needs to share with someone and I'm the best candidate right now, I thought, "Well, there goes that 500 words I was going to get in this morning." Because I expected to spend the morning worrying, and my afternoon is already full up.

But no. I won't let that happen.

I'm going to write, dammit. I got 2000 words in Wednesday night, so I'm definitely on a roll. I'm going to throw myself into the writing, at least for the next two hours, and worry about all the other stuff later.

I think I'm getting better at this--the "write no matter what" thing. I guess we'll find out, eh?*

How about you, fellow writers? If you're a writer (or any kind of artist), do you shut down when everything around you is chaotic...or does that make you write more? Feed my curiosity!


*ETA: Planned on writing 500 words this morning. Got almost 1000. Yes, I'm definitely getting better at this. Now I'm going to go brood, then do some chores.

2 comments:

  1. "do you shut down when everything around you is chaotic...or does that make you write more?"

    I think it depends on the brand of chaos. If someone really needs something or I'm surrounded by debris or something, I'll sacrifice writing. But when I'm determined to get some work done, I put on the iPod or put a disc in the laptop, grab the earbuds and deal with only visual chaos (ex: kids destroying house).

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  2. The chaos distracts me, and I find it is hard for me to concentrate on writing. This actually happened to me this past week. So much craziness going on, I didn't get any writing done.

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If you don't feel that you are possibly on the edge of humiliating yourself, of losing control of the whole thing, then possibly what you are doing isn't very vital. If you don't feel like you are writing somewhat over your head, why do it? If you don't have some doubt of your authority to tell this story, then you are not trying to tell enough. --John Irving